you know this is a game. you knew it in the first place and you stupidly chose to play it, not knowing how big an impact it will bring. the one who put too much seriousness in it loses and the other one wins. for the first few rounds you put on a really good show and you are clear headed. you know the rules of the game better than anyone else.

but sometimes things might not go the way you want it to be no matter how smart you tricked the game. it happens. you just lost your head and the game suddenly turned as real as your life is. you accidentally put too much seriousness in it. you gave your heart and then you break down and cry when you realized it's just a game.

you cry because you lose the game. you cry because its game over. you cry because there won't be a second chance. you cry for your naiveness. you cry for he won't be yours. you cry because you know you will miss the game in the future. you cry because everything ended too soon. and of course, you cry to mourn the virtual relationship you both created in the game, a game you regret to play.

you tried countless time but failed to recall the time when it wasn't real. then you started wondering if you should send the card out, the card you had prepared before the game is over. you talked to your opponent, hoping to get an answer, but the answer turned out to be as disappointed as the game is, both leave you feeling unwanted and lost...

you sent the card anyway because ultimately it's the only thing that will ever remind him of you so you called up his best friend to do you the favor. you wish to include the reason why you came back in the card. you came back for him but he didn't see it... how funny.

it's just a game afterall. 

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