{vintage rounded shades from vincci ; floral sunnies, printed leggings and leatherette crop pants from cotton on}

{the wonderful world of fifi lapin styling book from borders ; black strap watch from padini authentics ; earrings from vincci and f21 ; iphone cover from cotton on ; printed collar from cache cache}

{recently i found myself dwelling in the thoughts of travelling overseas so i kind of gotten some inspirations and put these combinations up. how i wish i could escape to a place where i feel safe being an anonymous ; no friend, no familiar faces, no nothing, just me.}

anyway, besides dreaming about things that might not happen as soon as i wish it'd be, i have been doing what i do best — reminiscing. i'm stuck in the time where everything seemed to be so perfect. i'm still trying to accept the fact that what's gone, gone and people do change from time to time. they turn from a carefree young person to someone with maturity. their mind change as they age. and things that aren't meant to be happening won't be happening no matter how hard i wish for it to happen. then they move on with life. but i get stuck in the past. they no longer do things that they do when they are young. but i still do. they know what they want to do with their life, while i don't even have a slightest clue. sometimes i feel so lost here — which completely contradicted my own words — all i wanted to do is finish my course as fast as possible and go back to where i belong.

last year, i had most of the things i don't deserve and these unexpected experiences are what make my life easier. i couldn't foresee what this year will bring but one thing i'm very sure of, there will be separation. i feel utterly depress even at the thought of it. first, it's my best room mate who'd left last year. soon it will be my best friend. and then everyone else. i hate to say this because i'm not that kind of person who couldn't bear or handle separation, at least before i set foot here. i had to admit it this time though, it took me so much courage to come to the realization that we're almost at the end of our studies. i don't know if i should feel sad or happy (for the fact that i can finally go back to where i belong) but to be honest, i really didn't want it to happen so quick and i couldn't imagine life without you people after all the things we've been through. i'm clearly aware that being in high school and college are totally different, and so do the friends i'd made along the way. people i know keep telling me high school friends stay; college friends don't and i had to admit i know this theory goddamn well and it's clearly the main reason why i'd always feel so intimidated and scared. i'm intimidated by everything that might cause our friendship to drift further apart after we separate. i hate the idea of this whole shit actually. the idea of getting close and then separate just when everything falls perfectly good in its place.

how can two years pass so fast?