as i sit in the car looking out of the window, my mind drifted away and in that subconscious moment, i started to reminisce the joyful moment we used to share.

/ it's 6.47am in the morning 

and i'm on my way to the new place. 

the pitch black sky seem to be darker than any other day. there isn't any star in sight to brighten up the dull sky, except the moon in its dimmest form. all i can see is the light ray coming out from distant lamp posts along the street. i sit quietly in the car, listen to the silence. memories start to play back in my mind as if i just hit the rewind button.

slowly, i close my eyes and let the memories play, scene by scene before my eyes. i couldn't help but starts to think about all the changes and mistakes that made us who we are today. i recalled the anticipation that left me utterly disappointed. is this how it's meant to be?

my emotions are all jumbled up, like thousands and millions of wire all tangled up in a knot. it's so hard to not think about it, but the more i think, the more upset i get. i could tell, from the many awkward conversations we had, that both of us are reluctant to leave, that both of us rather stay in an awful place than to separate. No words are spoken about our separation because we know we would cry buckets of tears saying goodbye to each other. Perhaps it is for the better to stay silent.

it's official. we're going to embark on our own journey after today.

a year ago, fate brought us together.
today, we are separating because of fate.
will we ever be able to unite by fate again in the future?

i pray hard for it to happen again although i know the possibility is almost close to zero.

i'll miss you. i hope you too. wish you all the best and may all your dreams come true. take care babe.

J

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