When i first moved out of my hometown, i hated the new place so much i cried myself to sleep every night and told my mom how i felt but all i get was 'you chose the road yourself so deal with it'. i got really angry with her at that point of time because it sounded as though she doesn't care a heck about me. But my anger was taken over by desperation so i continued calling her every night to complain about my dissatisfaction (i recall it as an excuse for me to find someone to talk to without sounding too awkward). Everytime we end our conversation with arguments until one day she told me 'stop phoning me to complain about everything you made me feel scared picking up your phone calls because of your constant unreasonable complaints'. Feeling rather hurtful and mad, i ended the call right away. Since then, i stopped calling her and started to deal with my then-shitty life.

To recall how i feel when i first moved in until now i'm starting to enjoy decorating the room, viewing the breathtaking sunrise and sunset from my bedroom window and relaxing on the bed with my favourite song on in the weekend. It's irony to say that i'm dying to leave this sucky place when it actually meant a lot to me. The longer i stay, the more i love this place. i just wanted it to be this way until i graduated but i had no choice.

Anyway, i'll be moving to a new unit in few days time and the usual me are supposed to be happy and all since the old unit is always short of current (major reason why i wanted to move out so badly besides the costly rental) but heck i'm having a mixed feeling. i think it's easy to say than done. Although i always say i wanted to leave but deep down it's already planted in my heart. it's funny how i took so long to realize this fact only when i finally decided to move out. This place, however, is the first place i live since i moved here and everything is so memorable be it good or bad (although most of it are the bad ones but still! every single bit of it is precious to me).

Hopefully the new place can bring as much memories to me as the old one does!

So long, au revoir :)