Sometimes i wonder where will i be in few years time? Will i be doing what i like? travelling around the world? or living the life i've been dreaming of since forever? Does anyone have this crazy thought like me or the other way round?

i always have a clear mind of what i like and what i want to become in the future but it is so wild and irrealistic it seems so far to reach. And whenever people asked me what i want to become in the future, i find myself getting choked up each time i tried to answer it because i'm too afraid that people might judge me. Not that i don't have a goal in life. i'm just constantly intimidated by disbelievers and the fear of being judged whether i can or are capable of reaching it. i should know well that people with big wild dream must have strong self-confidence but that's exactly what i'm lacking of. Don't get me wrong, i have self confidence but it's probably only 20% and the rest are denial.

i know this is something i had to learn by myself. Nothing people can do to pull me out of my comfort zone if i choose to remain the same way. it's a psychological thing. i had to constantly remind myself of my goal so i could take at least one step out of my comfort zone. One step is probably good enough for me as a starter.

p/s : there's a clothes buffet coming up this weekend! wanted to attend but transportation's a bitch! wish i could go.