i'd allowed myself to mental breakdown and be all sad and depress over the same reason once again. what the hell is going on with me i'm breaking down so often lately that i didn't know if it's something that really mattered me or it's just something that i'd like to cry over.

the moment i heard the news i had tears rolling down my cheeks eventhough i tried very hard to hold it back.
part of me accepted the fact that you and her are together now but another part of me secretly wish it didn't happen, or at least i didn't find out the truth. to be honest it doesn't concern me at all who the hell you want to date or start a relationship with, really. but why the fuck am i still constantly struck by jealousy?
this is the path i've chosen. i chose to let you go when i know i could have so much more if i treasure you the way she did.
well now i don't deserve a talk in anything or anyone you wanted to date or even you.

sometimes i wish i'm an ignorant bitch and would just bury my ass in my own world rather than going around asking about everything. fuck that curiosity. curiosity kills the cat, i hope it'll always remind me to only mind my own business instead of others because in the end it'll only hurt myself.

K

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